Why am I doing this?
Because even though I am a spiritual person, and in specific a spiritual teacher and intuitive channel, I am also completely and utterly human. This means I’m susceptible to common modern human foibles like over-indulgence, lack of self-care, and reactive, less-than-healthy living.
To date, I’ve half-heartedly explained this away as being due to my incredibly busy schedule, and I really am busy. As a leader of a fastly growing spiritual community, I have enrichment and developmental programs, teams and helpers and leaders, as well as community members that I personally tend to and care for. I conduct retreats, create free video content for a variety of platforms, host a (periodic) podcast, and am featured on various other platforms and programs. I am also writing one book and developing another, all the while creating evolving business mechanisms that benefit not just myself, but my partners.
It’s a lot. It’s a whole lot.
And I’m doing well. The work is paying off, as all hard work does.
But is that all that life is? Work?
It can’t be. Career work will bring you much, for example money and accolades and success, but career work alone won’t bring you one of the most important things you can ever possess: health.
Health requires a different kind of work, a kind that some of us — including me — tend to mistake as selfish. A great many of us labor under the false idea that taking care of our own wellness means we somehow take away our service to others. We give nonstop to others — to our families, our homes, our jobs, our mates — all the while letting our own interests, passions and health languish on the sidelines.
I can’t be the only one who’s been doing this. Putting off my health, grabbing another piece of cake, having that extra glass of delicious red wine. I also can’t be the only one racking up autoimmune disorders and energetic illnesses like they’re pool balls, all the while assuming, year after year after year, that someday, somehow it will magically sort itself out.
This is the kind of dumb paradigm that I’ve been living within for far too long. My symptoms have been increasing for years, faster and higher than even my so-called successes. At the date of this writing I have a whopping three autoimmune disorders (it’s not uncommon to develop more after developing your first), constantly fluctuating weight, edema in my lower legs and chronic almost-untreatable insomnia. I am tired a lot and often moody, and I am so incredibly sedentary that it boggles the mind.
It’s not that I’m lazy. Honey, I am NOT lazy. In fact I’m the opposite of lazy, it’s just that all the work I do, I do at my computer. I write my books at my computer. My blog posts. I record my podcasts there. Post to my community and my team. I draw up my blueprints, my plans, my outlines, all at the computer. I rarely stand unless I have to make another cup of coffee or tea, or go to the bathroom.
No, laziness is not my problem, but imbalance sure is.
I’m not a stupid person; I know what needs to be done. With each year of my life that passes, the inner messages become more acute: Take care of yourself. Clean it up. Get into alignment. Take it all the way down to the foundation and build it back up again.
I’ve been receiving — and yes, ignoring — these messages for a very long time.
But not any longer. The time to change it, at least for me, is right now. It has to be.
One word about spiritual people: we are actual people. There are plenty of us who don’t have it together, not even a little. In fact as far as fields go, spiritual leaders and teachers are right up there with psychologists and therapists for having as many if not more personal and existential issues than their clients. This is probably because we feel and sense at such a heightened level, and because we know, for the most part, what is possible.
It’s easy to become disappointed in ourselves when we do not reach our potential or experience life at the level we know it can be lived. This disappointment further feeds into behaviors and patterns that continue to keep us delayed, stuck, damaged and sick.
But we are people. I, case in point, am a real live person. And while I’ve gotten things wrong, I know that now is the time that I finally get it right. Right here, right now, I’m willing to make a radical and even an EXPLOSIVE shift. Through inspiration received directly from Source I am going to first detail and then document a groundbreaking new protocol that Spirit has informed me will get me back into profound alignment and jettison me into vibrant health. Not only that, following this protocol will blast open my intuition and deeply strengthen my spiritual connection.
In short, Spirit has assured me that if I follow this protocol to the letter, nothing short of the miraculous will be possible in my life.
And I’m here for it! Are you?
I will be the guinea pig for this protocol. The first one to put it all together and make it work, and then I will pass it along to any and all who seek to learn. Starting this week I will write out the entire protocol and provide thorough explanations for Spirit’s recommendations. I will also structure the information so that it makes sense and also so that it’s doable — not just for me, but for you too, should you choose to someday follow this same protocol.
Next week I will begin. I will put all of the information, recommendations, techniques and practices into form and start working the program. I will update my blog daily with my progress and I will give you feedback as to how all of it is affecting me. I will be honest. I will show you everything that is reasonable to show. You’ll know my weight (omg), my sleeping habits, my moods and my failures. Best of all, you’ll share in my wins.
I will, however, have to password protect my entries, saving them for only those of you who are truly interested in following this journey. Everything I write here will ultimately be compiled into a book to be offered at a later time — but if you sign up now (and signing up is FREE), you will have access to ALL of it as it is written and as it is happening in my life. I strongly encourage you to follow the journey. Spirit has shown me that it will be incredible.
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